m a Movie Buff

One thing which is prominent about me is "my love for movies"
Doubt about others... but I always tend to get deeply involved in characters, personalities, tears, script, the set of the film...and so on...

As a child I always wanted to be an Actress...

This is one thing I haven't shared with anyone than Teddo.... but acting was the only thing I wished I could do and was the only thing I knew...
A more than an average student...Only interested in dance and street plays...I was pushed to take part in Singing though I hated the choir..
Used to negotiate with my teachers and school captains to let me in Plays....
I never got very good comments over my acting skills than my best friend ..hehe...but I knew I will evolve if I work on my acting more and more ....and I did....I blossomed as an actor....!!
I took part at state levels ...won few of them too... I got lead roles too...
I loved that part ov my school life...
Anyhow...Did not get much to do in my best area in School.... grew up...got 2 offers for small commercial movies... several others for modelling... I never wanted to do latter
However ...i knew how badly I wanted the former.... My Daddy being very Possessive refused....
No problem...
I love my parents... I followed what they said.... They are experienced so did not crib at all....
Suppressed My dream....

Today when I have nothing much to do...and there are 3-4 interviews lined up ...I , sometimes feel bad bout them.... because I may put my best into everything I start but cannot put my heart into everything.... and end up looking all fake in Interviews...:P or act my love for the job out... lol...
Got Clueless about my Career .....
When people ask me.... What do I do....?
I feel so irritated...no matter i worked with big companies yet was Not that happy inside...
But I do get vibes of high hopes for the true love towards my work in future... If not, I will keep acting out...Proud :)

So, I am here living my life... without anything Interesting to do.... but will definitely try theatre soon or I may end up being just a simple housewife ( which I always wanted to be as Meet is my first love and Movies- the second)....

So My love never ended.... I still love movies like Insane.....
M such a movie buff...
I prefer watching them on dvd... so that I can pause...go back... play again a particular scene...listen to the dialogue...observe the expressions....try practicing in front of the Mirror...unless it gets better and better and better.....IN MY OWN STYLE

Few of my favourite Flicks are :
Clueless...I have heard Clueless Sequel is coming up with Alicia again.
Pretty woman
French Kiss
She's all that.
The Holiday
The grudge ( all horror stuff )
Aitraaz
Jab We Met
Race
Mean Girls
Titanic (dying to see its sequel too)
Lost and Delirious
American Pie(s) ;)

and ...Countless others

My favourite Actors/esses:

Freddie Prinze Jr.
Leonardo Dicaprio
Tom Hanks
Tom Cruise
Alicia Silverstone
Meg Ryan
Julia Roberts
Kareena Kapoor
John Ab
Cameron Diaz
Drew Barrymore
Dia Mirza
Paul Rudd
n many others
( P.S most of the men were stated above cuz i find them cute....)


The list would get updated from year to year, month to month, week to week.... as I watch movies very frequently and there are no reasons as to why I love a movie...
whenever I feel close to a character and I get an urge to push the actress away to the bin and act instead of her.....
Funny ...Isn't it?


I loved sharing that in my blog
* Blow kisses *

the New Castle near the Moon

heyy....yestrday was one of the  coolest days at my baby's place...i was....unusually dressed up perfectly cuz watever happened few days ago needed me to gather a lot of guts to go back to his place...

well...i fell in love wid the mirror....he came to pick me up and the entire way on bike i kept on peeping into the mirror....!!

then came the best part....

his place... seems to me a Dance party alwayss....his bro is fond of real loud music...veri loud indeed...!! 

met his mom..she looked amazing...!!

She cooked sm scrumptious paneer rolls for us...!!

since yesterday i gifted him hookah prior to his bday ...the onli thing i could smell was smoke of excitement....

then a li'l chit chat wid his mum...!!

i was veri comfortable for the veri frst tym at his place...now this place seems more n more familiar 2 me every time i go....

it felt like "Iam Home".... i m in love with that place and its people...!! Im not much into my cousins and peeps in my own family.....so it felt ..... i got a new n a better family... my dream of a happy family will come true ... i want to fill new colors of love and Harmony into it....

the onli thing m excited n a bit conscious bout is his bday this saturday...m bout to meet his entire khandaan ..oops....

*Fingers Crossed*

Alex in wonderland...:)

iam not to disover my present...cuz it is real hard to do so...it is going really tough for me....

sometimes i just wish to bang my head against the wall ...just soo fed up of watver is goin on...

all i can say is ntng is goin my wayy....

i wish i cud caste a spell as it is shown on wizards of baverly place and cud b a free spirited Alex for 1 day.... n i wud hv gone back school....n would have undone the mistakes i made that time....

i wouldn't have lost some of my buddies ....and my life would have been damn different and better....!!

onli if i knew how to FIT...be assertive...win frenz....be carefree....and less egoistic trait in me....!!

if i just knew how to fit in n survive in the girly geeky and sneaky world....this is how i can discover my present.... i think i made a mistake at everi step...wich makes me guilty all the time....but all i can say is that ...i respected myself....n i am not wid ppl...who din respect me and my worth...so let it be...!! however it could have been Different n a bit sensible cuz i had the resources n din know how to use them rather now i know how to use them but n lack resources....

so thts how i define my present still have a wish to get a magic wand...and redesign my past to get a perfect or at least a fair future.....

O i wish i Was Alex.........