Cannot Explain....

I Can't explain How it feels when

Everyone is against me....

I know you are along me...

And you would never believe thee..

I Dont feel a need for Anyone else...

mE~ cONtroversies... my Life ~full of continous - pangas... Shame shame..haww...but mere ko bahot hassi aa rahi hai..!!! Someone who I really liked (in the previous post) said...That :" I keep grudges...and take revenge thereafter" n " M an insecured girlfriend" and ...what ?? yeah... I have a pathetic attitude...do I? May be/ may be not...but thats the way I am...!!

At least M A true friend...!! I never leave my friends in their sorrow...i listen to them...Understand their pain....try doing everything...but obviously cannot let people take advantage of me...regardless of what so ever...!! M no1's Slave...

"Only he can understand what a farm is, what a country is, who shall have sacrificed part of himself to his farm or country, fought to save it, struggled to make it beautiful. Only then will the love of farm or country fill his heart."

Whateverrr..... As if I really care... I really do not care about your accusations.... because i never expected anything out of you.... I have stated in one of my previous posts...that I 'll rather stay alone....I still stick to that...the only difference is that today I am really happy in my life... My peace of mind is still there...!! I have not given any random one the authority to ruin my mood...or affect my life..!!

No grudges- No hatred- No regrets- No sorrows- No greed- No expectations

The fact is...No matter my 'so called' friends hurt me...No matter what they accuse me of...No matter I am no one to them.....I wouldn't take it to heart..at least Not for someone who did not even try see my warm side.... Who doesn't even regard my friendship or understand my Love....who doesn't see my compromises...and that I was with them in their time of need unlike them...!! I wish them all the best...lol...n yeah pitty on them...


I am harsh to those who try treating me like their slaves...!!
I am sarcastic to those who initiate on their own..!!
I am happy for everyone who is happy around...!!
No one is my enemy.!!
I am honest to myself and others...!!
I have the will to accept the truth...!!
I don't hurt anyone intentionally at least...!! and then I am not God to be perfect...!!

so does that mean...My attitude is pathetic...?


A question
... why do people always point 1 bad thing over 100 sacrifices...???? and another question... Why do people who tend to injure others badly...dun have the capacity to take a li'l wound ????

I am not here for explanations...they are just my random feelings....!! I am not an insecured girlfriend...cuz i trust my Love blindly...even if a slut sits on him...I am not a kid that I wouldn't make out...that who has what character....!! and M not perfect-neither a barbie doll...that I 'll simply endure...

I always share this with Teddo...that If you are by my side....I can fight with the entire world...!! If you are with me...
I know I am right.. and i can make a revolution...!! If you are wimme....I can live happily ever after without a single regret..!!
I don't want anything teddo....Just "you" and trust me.. I will be the happiest person on planet as I am today.....the luckiest..the happiest.....
n for someone so sure of what's Love can never be insecured...:)
And i guess we are enough for each other...!! At least I don't need anyone else...!!

Amith... You heard me before i wrote this...I guess that's what made me at peace.. ... it means a lot to me...that You were there..!!
No thank you's...just feeling blessed..!!

PisseD....

Patience tested....

tested n passed.....
tested n passed....
tested..n passed on border line...
Tested and FAILED big time

enough of tests....

Enough
*screams out*

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Feelings suppressed...they are killing me....I dun want anymore pals....
n one thing in my case in sure.....
.....I was happy alone....n i wanna live alone....dont know,, kab takk....but untill some work is done n my stress level which is burning up turns freezy cold....which might happen though some rare action.....i Guess its going to happen.....holy crap....is it going to happen???

M angry ...f*ked up....stressed....frustated....messed..dazed....feeling bad

My Knight is No more with me

O !! What days they were...

Wen I n my Knight were together..!!

Addicted to his shoulders,

My childhood went by..

As i grew, he din let me cry..!!

His Advices, His Love, His Dreams;

I wanted to give him All.

More than any Parents

He endured all my torments...!!

His strong headed and stiff decisions,

His ardent n Impetuous Visions..!!

He gifted me the best of everything,

Just what i ever had summoned..!!

Till his last breathe, he was stubborn

Did listen to None n din fight his agony..!!

Our bond was was utterly unique,

It was deep in every streak...!!

Someone sitting Above din like it,

My strength has gone after

My knight had left.

My knight in the shining Armour...

an inspirational force  was worn out to carry Burdens,,,

wen He fought his entire times...

Then y not this Destiny's Crimes???

His pain was unbearable to me too...

I coudnt endure it n i was trapped....

I had to decide what do i wish

His well being or His Life??

I prayed to God bt i doubt if there was any...!! :(

I had to see his grave n i was stunned..,

"O !! Y din u gifted me yo victory?"

I asked him on his grave,

I cried, I bent on my knees,

But he din answer and He din reply

My Macho left me Alone with my breathes heavy

To count my teardrops and the Solitary nights....

I loved you, I love you And I 'll alwyas Love you 

Hope u live happily with nothing to compromise.

In the new world you entered, O yes without me,

with the True souls, Real angels, N yeah without me..!!

I dunno where r u? But i knoe what u must b doing..

Must be manifesting Purity, Love and Selflessness...!!

Watching your son and yelling him high ,

In that famous anger n that manly sigh...!!

Must be watching and asking me somewhere..

To make him educated with all good deeds..!!

As i Always needed you..I apologize,

This task also I couldnt do without you 'My Christ'..!!

you WEre an angel, NOW a real one...

An intermediary between Earth n Heaven...!!

Guard your son since m unable to,

I feel like a thorn in the basket of roses...!!

Who m i without u? 

Some of the suppressions, some pains n Hoses

M  a defeat without you darling..!!

M a body without Soul, Strength  and M starving...

Starving for a Relief, Glory and Aid..

My knight..Bring me upon yo traits n Shades.....!!!!!!

All i Have now are the Memories

The life we once together is a Volatility 

Invite me once in your peaceful city

We'll conversate about the incomplete works

Transfer me your Power to begun where you ended...

with a li'l magic and  you, would do all tasks splendid..!!!

{Peace to your soul n yo love FOREVER chachu....hugs and kisses!!}

THIS PAIN BELONGS TO ME

                

This lost soul cries in the  crowd;

Shattered still pretended to be proud

Proud of???

Of the empty days and nights?

Of the hidden tears and sighs?

The wound which still hurts

The heart which neva blurts..

This brain is the sole equipment

which helps to win over evri situation..

Lonely room and the fake smile 

Aloof of the world,None walked together for a single mile...

The unheard houls, the unseen expressions

This world moved on and left aggression

A single being on this earth doesn't care

People around just laughed and stared...

No foes and frenz when looked arround

Houls and yells were the only sounds

Counted the stars with high hopes

Countless were they like teardrops

Life turned into a hell, dun wanna get caught

Even i wana njoy as its short

Woudnt expect this world to stand near

Not neglecting nor do i fear

Observed it and so used to it

Now least bothered bout them a li'l bit....!!!!