Come...Know me better..

U wont get it later....

i have this gut feeling to get famous 1 day so i might not have much time....vaise frens k liye i always have time....however...kya pata? genuinely nahi mile toh.....

so here are 100 questions underneath which i need to answer....on serious notes...i just wanted to see ...Will I be Honest in answering these personal things...Lets see...

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed your cousin: No.

Ran away: Yeah ....I still do.. :)

Pictured your crush naked: See i knew this quiz isnt that easy....Yes...!!

Skipped school: Innumerous times ...Stomach ache...headache...toothache...achyache

Broken someone's heart: May be..but if he/she had...

Been in love: Yes m in LOVE...

Cried when someone died: Yes. I cried when my close fren, grandparents and the closest person to me died...i still cry at nights for them...this phase is the hardest...

I howled last night too missing someone veri veri close to me...
..
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes.Hell..

Broken a bone: A partial fracture .... donno..frget it

Done something embarrasing: Yes followed with regrets

Lied: Those who say we dun lie...Are lying...!!

Cried in school: I what???? Cried???? I howled.!!!. 


WHICH IS BETTER

Coke or Pepsi: Kuch bhi Chalega..i dun get the difference till date

Sprite or 7UP: Same as above

Girls or Guys: 1 guy and a Bunch of Girls will do for me  I donno what u r thinking...But Iam thinking right

Flowers or Candy: Both  M greedy

Scruff or Clean shaved: Well...Rudded look for my guy  .

Blondes or Brunettes: Brunette, cz Iam one.

Bitchy or Slutty: Bitchy...

Tall or Short: Shorter if it is a girl....Taller if it is a guy

Pants or Shorts: Both at the right timings

Night or Day: Night, for most things.


WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX

What do you notice first: Attitude and Looks

Last person you slow danced with: Meet...( dil ko tumse pyaar hua )

Worst Question To Ask: Bring it on....i dont have much regrets...so ASK...( it could be difficult but not worst )


THE LAST TIME YOU...

Showered: A few hours hours ago. 

Had Sex: Another one...may be this is one of the worst question but not difficult for me...NOT YET.

Romantic memory: My darling's Birthday this year


WHAT IS (your favourite)...

Your Good Luck Charm: My close ones Pics in my wallet

Person You Hate Most: Well no one in particular...Any one who is dumb, mean, a hypocrite...I hate people for a moment coz i try find their bright sides too...So cant hate anyone forever...but i have seen devils on earth so may be All rapists, Murderers...Heartless people...!

Best Thing That Has Happened: Meet

On your desk: Right now i can figure out My friends pictures, Lord budha, some books, Candles, Dictionary...pens n so on

Picture on your desktop: My idol's picture

Movie: Clueless

Artist: Enrique

Cars: I Just love cars....Porche

Ice Cream: Chocolate and Blackcurrent

Season: the current one

Breakfast Food: I hate breakfast...Mostly sleeping when its breakfast time...so its Brunch for me.


WHO

Makes you laugh the most: Some Friends.... 

Makes you smile: My mumma.. 

Can make you feel better no matter what: Meet

Has A Crush On You: I think there are a couple of guys

Do You Have A Crush On Someone: No... 

Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: Girls

Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Define funny????


DO YOU EVER

Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: Yeah Many nights waiting for my baby's call when he is late 

Save MSN conversations: Not now...I used to do all these things an year ago 

Save E-mails: Yeah, I don't usually delete emails.

Forward secret E-mails: I hate e-mails...I dun go check my inbox for months n months.

Wish you were someone else: NO WAY but yeah wish for a better life...with more caring and honest people around

Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: Nope.

Perfume: J.Lo

Kiss: I just love kissing...lol...

Cuddle: I love to cuddle ... i love all the mushy mushy stuff.

Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: A few times... I din count the hours...May be...!!


HAVE YOU EVER

Fallen for your best friend?: I don't really have a 'best' friend.

Made out with JUST a friend?: Nooooo

Kissed two people in the same day?: lol No...intersting though 

Had sex with two different people in the same day?: Ewww noooo.

Been rejected: Ahhh...yes...In an interview.... :) I messed it up...!

Been in love?: Yes yes yes..M IN LOVE....:P

Been in lust?: yeah

Used someone?: Yes ... in order to take revenge.

Been used?: Yes....my theory says...there are two classes of people....

1) to get used 2) who USE people 

but this theory is not included in USE N THROW types....!

Cheated on someone?: No.

Been cheated on?: yeah yeah hehe...Unforgettable

Been kissed?: Yes.

Done something you regret?: Yeah been friends with wrong people


WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

You touched?: Me

You talked to?: Mommie 

You hugged?: Meet

You instant messaged?: someone known as Ricky...an Orkut fren.

You kissed?: Meet who else? n lately a peck on  Mommie's cheeks...mwahhhh yummy

You yelled at?: Meet...half of the day yesterday was venting out my frustation...m feeling guilty n like a Bi*ch

You thought about?: Umm...Myself (Iam selfish)  but thought of making a new friend...a long lasting one...

Who text messaged you?: Meet asking bout my well being as m not well

Who broke your heart?: A so called 'friend' she turned out to be a real Hypocrite

Who told you they loved you?: Many people loves me   Doubt who all were faking and who all said it from the core of their hearts


DO YOU...

Color your hair?: Nope. I did it once...in school...Color is too bad...I love it natural. I love black

Have tattoos?: No...waiting to get one angel near my ankle

Have piercings?: yeah..3-4

Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: hell yessss

Own a webcam?: Ya...but kharaab hai...:(

Own a thong?: lol...lets check out the cupboard

Ever get off the damn computer?: Tough but manage to do

Sprechen Sie Deutch? yes...i know German..Ich spreche Deutch

Habla espanol?: i just know this is Spanish but i Donno spanish....lets fly off to SPAIN..he he

Quack?: Yeah pagal hu mai ....i do every random thing...quack quack quack


HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...

Stolen anything?: What????? NO NO NO

Smoke?: Nope.. there are better ways to DIE.

Obsessive?: Self Obsessed

Compulsive?: Not really. o. 

Panic?: Occasionally....

Anxiety?: Lasst night

Depressed?: Reasonably....!!

What do u love??

Small things like a sweet message from a Sweet friend telling that he/she cares, Coffee, Popcorns, Music, My babie, Laptop...

Confession: M very Pissed off right noww...see yaa

~Addicted~

Long tym guyz No see...I met "him" today and went...to our favourite Spot..Khan Market..I just Larvvvveee this place....awesome is the word...!

I jus lov his company so much....

had Mc veggie n a regular coke...i luv this combo....

When we roam bout....we rate people...:P....i kno its kinda wierd....but we do....!!

this time it wasnt out of 10 but on percentage basis... i had to rate guys n he had to score girls....sm super sexy chics were there...but i remained at the top charts...some did touch my level...but no guy was as ggood as my jaan....its not only bout looks...but inside he is the most charming and acquires the best  heart in the world...

n then later at night....

we played badminton togetherr....

then till you sleep we talk over phone....

when we get up...i gotta listen your voice for the first...

then at your break time in the office...u discuss what all had happened...n wot your stupid boss said,,,,

in the evening ...either we move out or discuss our dreams over phone...or u sing for me..lol

then again Night comes....

n it continues....

i din get to know....

when did i get so used to my love....

my Daylight,twilight.....everything belongs to you

we r such vellahs for each other...

We love each other so much

I feel purfect wid u.....all i need for this Relation is...Blessings....and God's hands....over it

n i have full faith that it will blossom more...

sometimes ,

i wonder....

can i be best frens wid a guy..that too my own boyfren.....but yeah....God gave me 2 in 1....

Boyfren k saath best fren ek hi packet mei muft muft muft...

m so styupid 

writing ajeeb things....but i loved the day

every day brings us closer n closer....

m abundantly blissful cuz i have u by my side...

i love " Addicted " when u sing it for me....u hav a greatttt voice.....enrique k baad...tum hi ho...ok ok....usse bhi pehle.....

u just rockkk

mwahhhhh baby

n yeah....... May b m Addicted....No, i know Iam....addicted to you n these meetings...!!! 

Love hunny xoxo

My Budday Babie...!!

Em Late Guyz... I thot of updating his budday the very day it happened, that was Saturday n this is Tuesday...:(

Well well well...The gud News is....My idea got its shape and he had his best budday bash evaa....

What wasn't there??

*All his frenz n Cousins were invited

* Hookah n Boozing

* People went mad Dancing...

* A close dance with him on 'Dil ko tumse pyaar hua' ....at the centre of the party hall surrounded by like 15 frenz.

* Great pictures were clicked.

*Amazing gifts that he got...!!

*Impressed his family..yippiee....<3

*We awl were lookin cute.

* Everi1 was happy....n this party was reciprocated by comments like.."we neva saw such a pardiee"

* Incredible Champagne.

* Washroom Kiss..mwahhh  (.Sshhhhhh....!!!)

* It rained ( Sexiest Weather ever )

It wasn't just his day alone....it was my Love's celebration too...His birthday party Rocked...People wouldn't forget it....I bet....!!

 We missed the ones who din come,  the 1s who wern't there, MISSED all the FUN.... [:P|

And m reallie happy that my idea took a good shape....

Congo hunny....n yaa here are my bday wishes tto you

^ Keep Smiling ( true smile )

^ Loadzaa Success

^ May u get what your Heart desire

^ Keep loving yo family and Me...( n you get more love reverted )

^ Be successful in what u doing.

^ In short: I wish fo you....Love, Success, Happiness,Peace of mind, Long Life, gud Health, Joy, Fun, 2 kids lol, And Me....!! = A puurrffeecccttt   life

^ And I wish u keep kissing me like the 1 on your b'day...

Bless you babie...

Mwahhh

AND YES THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST HAPPY DAYS OF MY LIFE.... I got to understand a lot...and a confusion between Need and Desire got resolved ....

Happy bday ....'

Live long

mwahhhhhh!!!!!!!!

DAZED....!!

This was the longest gap between my posts....coz i was trying to figure out somethings...

I feel like a criminal nowadays, M restless, M not at peace, M all muddled up....

I simply Know what way to go...still can't go that way...

I AM DAZED (wish i could be a daisy instead...ok no more nature-related  metaphors...)

Lord Help me...!!

sometimes it is very struggling to choose between desire and need...!!

I'll always choose 'Need' and as i promised ....i stay on my words..no matter what.. i wouldn't take my words back....

Needless to say,I chose Need and I ll stick on that..then why is my desire popping up again and again to disturb me...to intervene and rule my Decisions...!!

haww  whatashame!!!!

I feel like a Rose in the dead Garden....I feel like a passenger in a train which lost its track...I m just so clueless.. y this restlessness has conquered me?????....m suffering sleeping nights, Feeling of happiness and sorrow at the same time....a tint of excitement and a hint of nervousness together.

Future is the only answer to all my queries...but this IMPULSIVENESS n this juggle between the Desire n Need...

awwwww Poor me...!!

the New Castle near the Moon

heyy....yestrday was one of the  coolest days at my baby's place...i was....unusually dressed up perfectly cuz watever happened few days ago needed me to gather a lot of guts to go back to his place...

well...i fell in love wid the mirror....he came to pick me up and the entire way on bike i kept on peeping into the mirror....!!

then came the best part....

his place... seems to me a Dance party alwayss....his bro is fond of real loud music...veri loud indeed...!! 

met his mom..she looked amazing...!!

She cooked sm scrumptious paneer rolls for us...!!

since yesterday i gifted him hookah prior to his bday ...the onli thing i could smell was smoke of excitement....

then a li'l chit chat wid his mum...!!

i was veri comfortable for the veri frst tym at his place...now this place seems more n more familiar 2 me every time i go....

it felt like "Iam Home".... i m in love with that place and its people...!! Im not much into my cousins and peeps in my own family.....so it felt ..... i got a new n a better family... my dream of a happy family will come true ... i want to fill new colors of love and Harmony into it....

the onli thing m excited n a bit conscious bout is his bday this saturday...m bout to meet his entire khandaan ..oops....

*Fingers Crossed*

Get Gorgeous

Very often a Girl  asks such questions from others and themselves...

How do i Look?? who's better ... the girl who lives next door or me?? 

They get insecured with a snap of a finger ...i also noticed the highlighted Jealousy factor in 'em...!!

Nature made everyone splendid.... everyone specialised...!!

Yesterday the weather was wealthy with beauty     ...trees rustling in the gentle breeze, the birds chirping, thick rugs like grass appeared greener.... the  hunk in the neighbour looked cute in red..( what? he is a part of nature too )

Did Trees ask the grass that i look better than you???

Or did the birds questioned the breeze??

Since the weather was awesome, everythin was giggling including the trees, the storm, the grass, the petals.... cuz the harmonious surroundings made things happier and when everything was so glorious ... i could see more of my neighbours out of their shells than any other day....it was not a usual sight..!!

This romantic weather also invited my boyfren... we shared a nice coffee n i cooked for him...everything seemed so perfect untill he told me an unusual thing ... while his way back

A 'B*tch' Conspiracy amonsgt his 2-3 cousins who i met for the first tym last week....

they made unwanted remarks on the way i look...in front of my bf's parents... i felt horribly ill inside....what was happening to me?

I never cared about what people talked behind me or against me...!! i know i look pretty good..then y is this unecessary stuff bothering me that too a kiddish conspiracy by a bunch of losers...?

I was feeling ill and ugly after a longggg period..!!

My guy's bday is next week and i thought of taking a revenge untill an inner voice interuptted.

"Girl.... Are u into this?? Ain't you above this crap?? Do successful ppl act like this??"

OMG..!! OMG !! What a nuisance..!!!

An ornament looking Rose din compare itself to the sacred lotus ... then why do we humans have this habit of judgement ...!! Can I say that these shrubs are more modest and  intelligent than humans???

I controlled my mind and tried to strike a conversation with myself. i said to myself

"I am a very special person with lots of dignity .... Iam independent...I love to travel....I love to chit chat....I walk like a queen... I talk nicely....I never think ill of any person not even my enemies....I love to read...and increase my vocab...i dream big like the castles in the sky..(:P....I was in school's badminton and theatre team...I was loved by many teachers n  still in contact with them...and most importantly i never judged anyone by his/her looks...I love nature likewise humans created by nature....!! these are all good traits...inside me..

and externally excpetionally pretty eyes and full lips, glowy skin and m almost in shape...then Y???

I still dunno why was i behaving wierd...initial few seonds..what went wrong with the carefree and loving girl inside me....Who overtook her...?"

So got a billion replies from somewhere deep:

All i gotta know was that Iam  absolutely Gorgeous....N in my special way....'A Strong woman'

'A good daughter', 'An outstanding Gf', 'A b'ful fren', 'A generous n a kind lady', 'A brainy girl', 'a popular good looking girl' and not to forget a 'God's Creation'

ANYHOW..... I learnt a lot yesterday..I learnt In order to be Successful and sustain that success, one has to overbear the tauntrums and ignore the conspiracies...however take positive things from the surroundings and Nature....!!

With past I have learnt to celebrate myself ... I hav learnt to stay alone happily...I have learnt to Love unconditionally, respecting people in my life, Smiling when it is hurting...

M over and above all this....I shouldn't even had re-considered the fact of humiliation...as i wasn't humiliated....M still above them and these Scandals...I love myself which is the most important and rare thing in the world...

"I am good...but am not an ANGEL...I might be a sinner...but am not A Devil"

"I donot care about what others say behind my back...i have already shown them my back"

"i look cute even when iam not well"

"I have to rise above all this...I live like a starlet then y not behave like one.. Do they keep asking their fans....and anti-fans to take back their words or whatsoever."

"I will never judge anyone"

"I will keep loving nature an will learn new things from the same...Would love to learn the sharing trait of animal kingdom, the free spiritedness of the butterfly 'queendom'...or the dancing trees and incredible peacocks "

learnt to --> RISE ABOVE THE BI*CH WHO TALKS BEHIND YOUR BACK.... LET THE MATURED WOMAN IN YOU OVERTAKE THE INSECURED GIRL...ENJOY LIFE TO ITS FULLEST...!!!! INSIDE ME IS  TRUE FEMININE GODDESS AND I 'LL BRING THAT OUT AND BE LIKE ONE...!!

PEACE

My Knight is No more with me

O !! What days they were...

Wen I n my Knight were together..!!

Addicted to his shoulders,

My childhood went by..

As i grew, he din let me cry..!!

His Advices, His Love, His Dreams;

I wanted to give him All.

More than any Parents

He endured all my torments...!!

His strong headed and stiff decisions,

His ardent n Impetuous Visions..!!

He gifted me the best of everything,

Just what i ever had summoned..!!

Till his last breathe, he was stubborn

Did listen to None n din fight his agony..!!

Our bond was was utterly unique,

It was deep in every streak...!!

Someone sitting Above din like it,

My strength has gone after

My knight had left.

My knight in the shining Armour...

an inspirational force  was worn out to carry Burdens,,,

wen He fought his entire times...

Then y not this Destiny's Crimes???

His pain was unbearable to me too...

I coudnt endure it n i was trapped....

I had to decide what do i wish

His well being or His Life??

I prayed to God bt i doubt if there was any...!! :(

I had to see his grave n i was stunned..,

"O !! Y din u gifted me yo victory?"

I asked him on his grave,

I cried, I bent on my knees,

But he din answer and He din reply

My Macho left me Alone with my breathes heavy

To count my teardrops and the Solitary nights....

I loved you, I love you And I 'll alwyas Love you 

Hope u live happily with nothing to compromise.

In the new world you entered, O yes without me,

with the True souls, Real angels, N yeah without me..!!

I dunno where r u? But i knoe what u must b doing..

Must be manifesting Purity, Love and Selflessness...!!

Watching your son and yelling him high ,

In that famous anger n that manly sigh...!!

Must be watching and asking me somewhere..

To make him educated with all good deeds..!!

As i Always needed you..I apologize,

This task also I couldnt do without you 'My Christ'..!!

you WEre an angel, NOW a real one...

An intermediary between Earth n Heaven...!!

Guard your son since m unable to,

I feel like a thorn in the basket of roses...!!

Who m i without u? 

Some of the suppressions, some pains n Hoses

M  a defeat without you darling..!!

M a body without Soul, Strength  and M starving...

Starving for a Relief, Glory and Aid..

My knight..Bring me upon yo traits n Shades.....!!!!!!

All i Have now are the Memories

The life we once together is a Volatility 

Invite me once in your peaceful city

We'll conversate about the incomplete works

Transfer me your Power to begun where you ended...

with a li'l magic and  you, would do all tasks splendid..!!!

{Peace to your soul n yo love FOREVER chachu....hugs and kisses!!}